My First Blog

So why I am starting a blog?...  A site where people can look into my private life and laugh and cry and criticize?  Because you never know where life is going to lead and I have found mine to be one crazy trip.  I want to write it down to remember it and I want to write it down so that others can see what my life and what my MIND is all about.  Not to mention, too often people have asked me... "Do you have a blog?  You should..."  Here goes:  (Let he who be without sin cast the first stone)

Where to begin...?  I guess a good starting point would be when everything I knew and wanted and worked for and had hoped for all blew up in my perfectly tanned face.

It was June of 2008.  Approaching my third year of being happily married.  Or so everyone thought. 


The downfall came on our second evening in Niagara Falls.  My husband and I had had an excellent day.  We saw the falls, walked underneath them, rode on the "Maid of the Mist".  It was fabulous.  Had dinner at a wonderful restaurant that overlooked the falls and enjoyed some cocktails after dinner.  Wait... let me rephrase that last part:  TRIED to enjoy some cocktails after dinner.  All it took was one final, repeated, horrible argument to set the ball rolling.  The next morning we packed our bags and headed home ending our vacation much too short.

From there on it was a long ride home and an even longer process of crying, talking and hurting before months later the final decision would be made and my marriage was officially on it's way out of the beautiful home we had made into our own for the past 2 years.  Out of respect for myself, my ex-husband and the bond we once shared, as much as you would all love the juicy details, the past is over and it is best laid to rest in the privacy of my and my respected ex-husband's heart.  We spent almost 11 years in total together. 

I will say one thing, however.  Had I of known then what I know now things may have turned out VERY differently.  I would like to think things would have turned out for the BETTER, but no one can ever be sure and who can truly say what 'better' is. 

Regardless of what may or may not have been my life changed drastically and went in directions I never thought I would go!  But here I am and here I will be.