Wow. Yeah. So it's really almost been a month, huh? So I have been busy. Turns out I actually have a life after all. And one that can be amicably happy too! Ok. Happy may be a little extended, but satisfying would certainly be an acceptable descriptive word at this point.
Yes, I am quite content. Things have changed quite a bit in just a months time. I went from one going well dating experience to another. That's how life works isn't it? You wait and wait and WAIT for something at least DECENT to come around and then you get something good. And just when that good seems to be getting better... then something REALLY good jumps right in front of you and you have this horrible decision to make. However, it's not... HORRIBLE... in all sense of the word is it? Well, horrible for the ones who are up against the challenge, but not for me... who would technically comes out the victor in the end right? I actually had to PICK between two good men. Can you believe it? I sure as hell couldn't. It was horrible. It really was. How do I do this? I haven't had do this since... well... EVER really! I mean I have come close, but this was just really difficult with all I have going on. And after waiting so long for someone decent and now having two decent, but yet so different, men to basically decide which to continue with. It was quite an upheaval.
So I did make my decision. I cried like I was breaking up with my boyfriend of 3 years and we hadn't even been 'committed'. But I guess that's just my sensitive, I don't want to hurt anyone, especially anyone who has been very good and nice to me, side. But it had to be done. I am not the type to drag anyone through the mud or be sneaky sneaky for my pleasure. In fact I am the opposite. I don't have time for such shenanigans. Nor do I want the medical bills from the ulcers it would likely produce.
So here I am with my 'choice'. And it's great. And I am happy! I haven't felt the need to run. I haven't felt the need to hide it from anyone. There has been no drama. There has been no discomfort. There has been no questioning about motives or hidden agendas. It has been... well.. NORMAL. This is weird. Part of me feels I should be scared at just how NORMAL this is, but part of me is like 'YES!!! RELIEF!!!" I can relax. I can smile. I can sleep at night and wake up rested because I have someone in my life who gives me space. But yet still misses me. Someone who sends me flowers... FLOWERS!! Do you know how long it has BEEN?! He doesn't over do things. But yet he lets me know he is around. It's like.. chivalry. Modern times. It's fabulous. It's too good to be true. It's if-this-was-my-girlfriend-I-would-call-her-nuts-and-tell-her-it-won't-last-because-I-am-so-freaking-jealous! But this time. It's me. And I won't question it. He's into me. I am into him. And right now. It's going at the perfect speed. And I will enjoy it!
Other than all that! I am still looking for a new job. I have been doing interview after interview after interview. I am exhausted. About 95% of the interviews are at the same place! Just different departments. Yes the place is THAT big. Some I am over-qualified for. Some they decide not to hire at this time. Some they decide to just hire with-in. Some they just decide to go with someone else. But the fact that they keep calling me tells me that this place must think I will fit in somewhere. I won't give up. My current job is no longer satisfying. I cannot stay. I have been searching for a new job since the middle of June. It's a tough market, but I have a lot to offer. I won't give up!
My neck is still giving me troubles from the auto accident (don't get me started on those bills and the auto insurance I am dealing with!) and today I am pretty sure I have come down with a bad ear infection. But my health is doing well.
Still loving the apartment. No complaints there at all!
That's about all I have time for at the moment. I always think of funny things to write, but never get the time to sit and write them. A lot of good things come to me while catering. I need to take 10 minutes and discuss them after work ;)
I promise it won't be so long until the next blog! I need to get back to AT LEAST once a week! Thanks for hanging in there for those of you who still read!
